Isnt it really sad when people move away? i'v been in this situation a number of times, some where i have left, others have left, i didnt want to leave, had to leave.. all sorts of combinations. its terrible, heartbreaking. i want to say i hate it, but i know i dont.. coz such amazing things tend to happen. you grow up, broaden your horizons, meet new people, see new places, new experience etc.. the list goes on. theres so much that we learn and grow and ... like i once said... change its constant, and i hate it!
seriously.. its pretty terrible when it happens too fast to handle. and its terrible when its too slow... so slow that you feel like nothings happening in your life- its a drag! ahhhghg! how do you strike a proper balance? actually... u cant. life just gives it to you the way it wants and theres nothing u can do but suck it all in! but what you can count on is - that if you really want it to slow down- it will go faster. and if you want it to go fast - it will slow to a crawl.
terrible isnt it. almost as bad as murphy's law.
anyway getting back to people leaving - o it sucks! i mean u are so used to them being a constant influence, and then they up and vanish. now while i'm complaining... i'm feeling really guilty coz there are so many people who are here, but i have lost touch with, simply coz i dont have the time, cant be bothered, etc. thats terrible isnt it? i mean these are still people that i feel are my friends, and i was really close to at one point of time. what prevents me from picking up the phone and calling them? well... to be really truthful... i just dont have much to say. i mean... nothings happening that much really. well on a macro scale there isnt. so not much to fill them in on. on a micro scale there is always lots - some of which tend to be the ramblings in my head. but yeah.. uno day to day problems and issues, scattered with a few good things that only i care about. so i mean, really, what do i talk about? uno substantial stuff.. not chit chat. i doubt anyone wants to come and take a sneak peak at the mess in my head and the moutains and creating with mole hills! sometimes i do, bore the hell out of my poor friends with all this detail... then they tend to avoid me i think. actually why have meaningful conversations with people... most of them dont really want to, they just want to have a good time. so maybe after this.. i should just keep inviting people out for coffee and catch up a bit while having a good time and thus distracting myself from the chit chat! actually tho i complain so much... doesnt necessarily mean i dont like chit chat.. i probably is that i'm just not good at it. ha haha!
its the heat i tell u, its the heat!
Friday, July 14, 2006
Friday, May 19, 2006
Change anyone?
What do u think about people who all of a sudden change?.. turn over a new leaf… turn their lives upside down, themselves inside out.. whatever. U get the picture right? Yeah.. so what do u think? Scary isn’t it. Kind of makes u feel like, ‘hey, did I really know that person’! and this of course is apart from the fact that u’r thinking, “holy mother of god!!!!!!! when did this happen???????? and just when u think u know someone.....tsk tsk tsk...”
And I’m not just talking about some tomboyish girl wanting to wear a skirt – not implicating anybody here :D I’m talking about people just turning their life around some guy/ girl or the new ‘hep/nerd’ friends, or society/ club they joined, or the new job they got.
Do u think it could be the heat?
Actually to be truthful… change is kinda good. I know its cliché but it is after all the only constant thing in life. So how do we handle it. I for example am really bad at it. I love my routine, everything’s timed and planned, and I rarely stray from it, and only… kicking and screaming. I like to know what’s in store, what to expect, where to go, what to do, i like stability - for example i really cant do much travelling around, a small stint and i need to get back to my haven… plus i need sometime to myself, to think and ponder about stuff, and basically time to myself to recharge myself.
I don’t like the uneasiness or queasiness of uncertainty. It unnerves me. I suppose in essence I change and grow (I’m really big on growth..!) but I suppose in essence I’m still the same little naïve wide eyed kid I used to be. People will tell u that half the time I have this dazed look on my face… I think that’s coz if I’m in my routine… theres not need for me to concentrate, and there are so many fantastic places to go (in my mind).
I’m a bit of a dreamer I suppose…
And I’m not just talking about some tomboyish girl wanting to wear a skirt – not implicating anybody here :D I’m talking about people just turning their life around some guy/ girl or the new ‘hep/nerd’ friends, or society/ club they joined, or the new job they got.
Do u think it could be the heat?
Actually to be truthful… change is kinda good. I know its cliché but it is after all the only constant thing in life. So how do we handle it. I for example am really bad at it. I love my routine, everything’s timed and planned, and I rarely stray from it, and only… kicking and screaming. I like to know what’s in store, what to expect, where to go, what to do, i like stability - for example i really cant do much travelling around, a small stint and i need to get back to my haven… plus i need sometime to myself, to think and ponder about stuff, and basically time to myself to recharge myself.
I don’t like the uneasiness or queasiness of uncertainty. It unnerves me. I suppose in essence I change and grow (I’m really big on growth..!) but I suppose in essence I’m still the same little naïve wide eyed kid I used to be. People will tell u that half the time I have this dazed look on my face… I think that’s coz if I’m in my routine… theres not need for me to concentrate, and there are so many fantastic places to go (in my mind).
I’m a bit of a dreamer I suppose…
Apples and Wine...
a little tired of the seroius melodramatic stuff... time to chill .. eh?
for all the women out there... check the one below!
Women are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. Most men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead they sometimes take the apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. The apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they are amazing. They justhave to wait for the right man to come along, the one brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree.
Now Men.......Men are like a fine wine. They begin as grapes, and it's up to women to stomp the shit out of them until they turn into something acceptable...
:D
eh...
dont apples also get stomped on to make cinder?
:o
for all the women out there... check the one below!
Women are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. Most men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead they sometimes take the apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. The apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they are amazing. They justhave to wait for the right man to come along, the one brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree.
Now Men.......Men are like a fine wine. They begin as grapes, and it's up to women to stomp the shit out of them until they turn into something acceptable...
:D
eh...
dont apples also get stomped on to make cinder?
:o
Life is a journey...
Life should NOT be a journey to the grave
with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body,
but rather to skid in sideways,
chocolate in one hand, wine in the other,
body thoroughly totally worn out
and screaming
"WOO HOO what a ride!"
- eh.. i dont know who.
but this ones courtesy me! hee hee.. only one more to go!
with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body,
but rather to skid in sideways,
chocolate in one hand, wine in the other,
body thoroughly totally worn out
and screaming
"WOO HOO what a ride!"
- eh.. i dont know who.
but this ones courtesy me! hee hee.. only one more to go!
Thursday, May 18, 2006
Imagine..
Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace”
- John Lennon and Yoko Ono
p.s again courtesy 'storehouse' Abubuo
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace”
- John Lennon and Yoko Ono
p.s again courtesy 'storehouse' Abubuo
"We shall have to repent in this generation not so much for the evil deeds of the wicked people but for the appalling silence of the good people"
- Martin Luther King Jr
courtesy ababuo... who i dont know how, remembers stuff like this! this is a spill off of the previous post, but i wanted to up this up, so it stands out. ooo i also like the thing she said about the whole - imagine a world without countries, boundaries and all other differences. ok.. so i cant remember stuff... if you want u can check it out on thiriyayas spot.
what is it about my memory... its highly amusing. not to remember stuff, just snatches of it. really. wont be so amusing if i end up with alzheimers.
ok depressing. not going to say much now.
- Martin Luther King Jr
courtesy ababuo... who i dont know how, remembers stuff like this! this is a spill off of the previous post, but i wanted to up this up, so it stands out. ooo i also like the thing she said about the whole - imagine a world without countries, boundaries and all other differences. ok.. so i cant remember stuff... if you want u can check it out on thiriyayas spot.
what is it about my memory... its highly amusing. not to remember stuff, just snatches of it. really. wont be so amusing if i end up with alzheimers.
ok depressing. not going to say much now.
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